A slight note; this is an opinion piece. I mean no disrespect or insult to anyone else’s beliefs. The following article represents my thoughts — which may change as I continue on my journey of discovery and growth — as they are now and as I come to understand my beliefs.
One of the most challenging hurdles I encountered when I first began considering the divine and spirituality was that if we are all-knowing and all-connected, then why did we feel the need to reincarnate into earthly beings? I initially thought that it was to gain our higher forms, but then why would we join in the collective existence just to return to our earthly bodies? Have we not ‘levelled up’ enough yet? Do we have no more earthly experiences when we reach a certain point of ‘enlightenment’? This question made no sense to me.
The universe as we know it has no end, so why would our existence, both divine and human? These questions lingered in the background of my mind as the realities of my human life surged forward, capturing my attention. They teased my mind until I could no longer ignore what I saw as flawed logic. My ego tried so hard to use these questions to convince myself that spirituality is unattainable. A swindle, if you will.
Once introduced to fractals — the principle of self-similarity — one thing stuck out for me. And I suddenly saw this commonly known concept of our divine selves in a completely new way.
Throughout nature, you can find repeated and repeatable patterns. It is essential to recognise that this understanding emerged while researching and observing these patterns, including the pattern of a turtle shell and the same pattern manifesting as energy frequencies when pushed through liquids, from the very existence of our spiralling DNA. It occurred to me that if these repetitions occurred in nature, then they should appear in our divine lives. For me, this was a fantastic concept, our sacred selves repeating these same patterns. We understand the cycle of life and death, but our divine selves do not die. Therefore, we must reincarnate in our earthly forms to repeat the pattern of life and death, building an understanding of all that is.
But my ego, ever prepared to narrow my life to the known and unknown, or rather known and false, as there is little scientifically proven or accepted evidence of something larger than our everyday experiences.
When I spoke to mentors and other spiritually guided individuals, I noticed a common acceptance of indifference to both ‘good’ and ‘bad’ events. That it was just, while true, led me to wonder how being indifferent could be beneficial for our divine souls. It felt wrong to me, and a dangerous road to travel down, since we could not understand and be compassionate towards others if we remained indifferent to both the good and the bad. Perhaps this is enlightenment, and by thinking in this way, we may feel a connection to something greater. But is it true enlightenment if we remain cold and indifferent to good and bad, even in our human lives?
This new perspective gained momentum within me. It is a universal law that ‘Absolute power corrupts absolutely.’
In our divine forms, we are not immune to this universal law. All I could see was a recurring pattern of gaining enlightenment and becoming so indifferent to our ‘small existence’ as earthly beings that we believe those small existences are beneath us. Why would you want eternal existence if you succumb to your divine power? How is it enlightened if we care so little about our small earthly experience?
Another universal law we are a part of and governed by is the concept of balance. From the largest of pictures to the smallest of mundane decisions, we and our universe must have a balance to understand our world and the nature of existence.
Such is true of our higher self. We must find balance, and we must balance both the shadow and the light to exist with confidence, compassion, love and understanding. All beings must live within this law, as harm can and will befall us when we tilt too far either way.
I believe we experience and re-experience the smallness of earthly existence to fully embrace the balance of light and dark within — and externally to — our divine selves. Such events provide us with wisdom, both good and bad, and inform our emotional selves. I use the terms’ bad’ and ‘good’ as we can understand the basics of these concepts. However, good and bad are human concepts that are both universal and individual, and without experiencing both, we become apathetic in our divine and human lives.
I do not believe our divine selves re-experience life to learn and eventually gain an enlightened form, as if we are video game characters levelling up so we can defeat the boss. There is no point of ‘levelling up’ expecting to ascend for the rest of eternity and believing we won at existence; instead, we need to repeat the patterns to maintain our existence and learn all that we can, and as a way for our divine selves to remember that we must have balance or our universal existence will not maintain itself.
We are always our divine selves, but we deliberately, or perhaps as a kind of divine penance, reincarnate into our earthly existences to maintain our balance and, therefore, the balance of everything. Karma is the most accepted and scoffed at concept I can think of, which highlights my belief in our repeated experiences and the need to become an earthly being. In short, our larger divine self needs to experience the smallness of creation to truly accept its larger connectedness to our divine lives.
Bluebird and Crow 